Freezing Fibro

OK, enough of the below freezing temperatures!!!  We had a dusting of snow, here in CT, over a week ago and it's STILL on the ground.  I don't think I have been able to feel my toes for a week LOL!  Enough already!!!  The cold weather really is no friend to those of us who suffer from Fibro.  Everything aches, hurts, stiffens up & even burns.  UGH x 10!!

Well, anyway...I finally got the last of my Christmas shopping done yesterday (WHEW!) and everything is wrapped & ready to go.  I'm paying for it today, though.  I'm having the worst time trying to muster up even a minuscule amount of Christmas spirit this year.  I think, if it was just me, I would ignore it and let Christmas quietly pass on by; but that wouldn't be fair to my son and the rest of my family.  *SIGH* so we'll just act "as-if" for now.

We did (finally) put up a Christmas tree...if you can call it that.  I wasn't up to assembling & decorating the big tree this year so I bought this little tabletop real tree.  OMG!  It's the saddest, ugliest thing I've ever seen *giggles* and it lists ever so slightly to the right.  Harley & I decorated it and decided that we'd deal with it for 1 year.  It was looking so sad & fugly yesterday, so we thought maybe some tinsel would help...NOT!  Now it looks like it's growing hair!  It looks like a shiny Cousin It!!!  The tree has become a huge source of giggles & jokes, though so I think it's worth having, quite possibly the ugliest tree I've ever seen. ;o)

Have a very Merry Christmas everyone!

Here's a pic of the tree pre-tinsel...

Sully Erna on Rockline

Oh BTW...check out Sully Erna (singer of Godsmack) live on Rockline on 12/6/2010. He'll be talking about his new solo album Avalon, which is a totally bewitching & amazing auditory journey & really gives me moments of peace & healing during even the darkest of Fibro flares.

Details on www.sullyerna.com

Mwah peeps!

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Bitches Rule!

So, umm yeah...I'm a bitch. No apologies. No regret. It took me a while to get to the point where I was comfy in my bitchiness. I'm not a purposfully mean bitch & I don't go looking to hurt anyone's feelings intentionally. I do pretty much speak my mind & frequently lose my filter which can get me in trouble sometimes. But I've learned that just goes with the bitch territory.

Why am I writing about this?? I don't freaking know! Stop asking me questions! LOL

I will admit that with the Fibro, I have to be careful that I don't turn from a bitch to a cunt - no I don't like that word but it fits. Sometimes the pain & shit gets overwhelming & my bitchiness goes on overdrive. So deal with it...but y'all have my permission to tell me if I've crossed over the cunt-line. That's a weird word (cunt)...why do we hate it so much? *shakes head*

Anyway, back to bitches. I have some wonderfully bitchy friends! And when we combine our bitchy powers...watch the fuck out LMAFO!!

So go ahead. Embrace your inner bitch. Better remember to feed her coffee & chocolate at regular intervals or she'll fuckin take a match to the string on your tampon! ;o)

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It's wine o'clock

So, I'm sitting here getting a nice buzz on with a bottle of red wine...I think the label said Petit Serah, but who the heck cares at this point.  It was a crazy week at work, stressful so that kicked in my fibro to high-gear...hence the bottle of wine.  I just want to feel my body relax at least for just one night, Oh don't freak out....I'm not an alcoholic - I just needed to de-stress tonight.

It feels pretty damned good though to feel a little numb, I just wish the keyboard would stand still dammit! LOL I'll probably be crashing in a few minutes, I can't hold my liquor the way I used to when I was younger.  A few glasses of wine & I'm done.  But thank God for the woman who stepped on the first grape & discovered wine...yummmm.

I probably should sign off before I start writing drunken poetry or some drivel like that.  Much love to everyone who has loved & supported me through this hellacious week...ILY!!

Toodles!!

Godsmack - Why (Studio Version)

Migraines...life's lil mindfuck

So I've had this damned migraine for 4...count 'em 4 freakin days. Everytime I think it's gone...BAM it just comes right on back. What really sucks is that this is, quite possibly, the worst timing ever (not that there's ever a good time for a migraine). I'm in the middle of doing User Acceptance Testing (UAT) on a new system at work & really really need to be able to focus. SIGH!

I know that I'm not the only migraine sufferer out there, but DAMN! I have enough going on...do i really need this too?!

Oh well...I guess I can be thankful that at least I'm not pregnant. LOL, yes that IS how I console myself. AND I'm blessed with the best friends imagineable! Oh & I'm the lucky mom of a pretty chill kid, too. So I'll live.

Really can't wait for the weekend though :o)

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It's been awhile...

I know...i'm a baaaaad blogger.  It's been a while since I've posted...well, it's been a while since I've even felt able to post.  I've been in a horrible funk.  Don't wanna post, don't wanna talk..just wanna sleep (which, of course, I never do) and cry.  It's been an incredibly stressful couple of months!

We had some crazy shit happen with my Mother, which really is her story to tell, not mine; but suffice it to say - the stress pretty much crippled me.  Really, the only thing that kept me sane was putting on my i-pod & drowning myself in my music...Godsmack, Killswitch Engage, Slipknot, All That Remains, Sully Erna's Avalon, etc - they were my lifeline (well along with my besties :o)

It's not just me, though, it seems like everyone I know is going through some kind of overly dramatic, stressful situation.  Weird!  So, I send big, messy smooches & hugs to all my friends wherever they may be & whatever they are going through.

So on the Fibro front - my doc tried me on Trazadone for sleep - well that was a resounding NO. Had the same damned reaction that I had to the Lyrica...it waaaayyyy over sedated me and gave me horrific nightmares (the kind that keep you awake & afraid to close your eyes). SIGHHHHH...it seems we're back to square one!  That was very discouraging.  I seem to have trouble with pretty much every med he tries.  This fucking cold weather isn't helping either!  It seemed to come on so quickly.  I'm a bit scared about what this winter will bring - that's when I kind of fell apart (fibro wise) last year.

Well, I'm gonna sign off for the night & chat with my bff Peanut about the travesty that is our lives LMAO.

I think I found the cure for stupidity...a shock collar...if it doesn't stop the stupidity at least you can get a laugh from watching them flail around..LMAO